Friday, November 4, 2011

That thing that happens to us all.

I've been in a funk. 
It happens to everyone.
And whether you are in one now or have previously been in one, you know what it's like.
Sometimes it starts by meeting someone that is just so put together.
They know what they are doing, where they are going, and nothing is going to stop them.
So obviously, this causes you to stop and reflect on where you are.
You aren't dating anyone.
You aren't currently enrolled in school.
You have zero social life.
And you work at a bakery.
It then may seem as if you are going nowhere in life.
And sometimes that thought causes you to lose hope that you will amount to anything.
And losing hope is never any good.
Because when you lose hope in one thing, it is a lot easier to assume all hope is lost.
You try to blog.
Thinking that will help you get all of your thoughts out and then you can conquer them.
But then you think, who cares?
Who wants to read about how depressing and confusing your life may seem?
So you try a journal.
But the words just don't come.
Your parents ask what is wrong.
And you can't tell them.
Because you don't really know.
You just feel empty.
You feel like you aren't really there.
That you are just going through all the motions.
With no emotion.
You can't even get yourself to do the miniscule things like cleaning your room.
Because you just don't see the point.
You want to quit.
Be done with it all.
Then finally, you just can't do it anymore.

And that is the moment when you fall to your knees.
You let it all out.
You scream.
You cry.
You whisper.
And then you are silent.
Every thought and feeling you've been holding in finally comes out.
You just collapse.
Because everything is finally off of your shoulders.
You get that little glimpse of hope you've been longing for.
And you finally realize something you've known all along.
You realize, that He doesn't care.
He doesn't care if you are currently single.
Or if the most eventful thing you do all day is drizzle chocolate onto cakebites.
He loves you regardless.
And life will get better.
Every trial is only there to make you stronger.
Make you a better person.
Overcoming those trials prove to the world that you deserve the very best that life has to offer, and that you will succeed.
And nothing will stop you from accomplishing what you want and reaching your dreams.
You have so much potential.
We all do.
Maybe working at a bakery is what you want to do for the rest of your life.
Maybe it makes you happy.
If it does, nothing else matters.
No one else but you has a say in it.
You do what makes you happy.
Because you are the only one that will have to wake up every morning to those decisions..
Life can be as good as you make it.
So make it the best.
Don't cut yourself short.
You deserve better.
You deserve the best.


Jessica said...

I love you Jenna. Your the best. Your an amazing writer and always put words together perfectly.

The Girl in the Dress said...

I've missed you, Jenna.
I've been waiting and waiting for you to blog! You're so great, and I love you. :)
I know that you are going to have an amazing life! I hope I get to see you soon!

Jes Abram said...

Thank you for making me teary-eyed at work... I appreciate it...

laura... said...

i love this so much. every time you blog i think about it for that weird? thanks, jenna. you are too good.