Wind.

I think wind is my least favorite weather.

I feel so vulnerable.

It's like you are just waiting for the wind to make up its mind on what it wants to destroy.

Sometimes it is just a little scare and nothing happens.

And other times.. 

Well, we've all seen the news.

I don't mean to be so Debbie Downer,

I'm just not a big fan of the wind keeping me up at night. 

Sleep tight.

Banged up.

Surprise, surprise.

So, guess who got asked out on a date?

This girl.

It was last night.

I wont lie, I was a little nervous.

Almost forgot how to act while on  a date..

But no worries.

I conquered it.

And it was actually pretty fun.

We went bowling and made gingerbread houses.

My date bowled a 141.

Not too bad.

I bowled a 45.

No, I didn't forget the "1" in front.

Forty-five.

Impressive.

I know. 

Then we killed at gingerbread houses.

Slash gingerbread cities.

(That's what we were going for, a city.)

 The thing in the front,

that's a Christmas tree.

You should of seen it when it was made out of M&Ms...

Well, I'm not a fan of blind dates.

Or first dates at all.

And I try to stay away from them.

But this one passed the test of being a pretty ok first date.

I also went to a party on Wednesday night.

I know, I know.

I was a little shocked too.

Party one night, date the next?

Who am I?

Anyway, the party.

So it was a dance party and you go dressed up from your favorite decade.

How sweet?

So obviously, I dressed the part of a 1920s chick. 

It was pretty rad.

Hair:

(Well, half of it..)

Headband:

Last and definitely best, my dress:

 Everything looked a lot better in real life.

I'll try and find a picture of it all together..

But the dress I got the day before the party, 20 bucks. 

I loved it. 

Great, great party.

Help.

For the past two weeks we've been really busy at work.

So everyone has called in friends and family to come and help.

On a normal day, there are seven girls working and one boy.

It's a bakery, what do you expect?

Well for this past little while, we've been split into two shifts and now when I work it is two girls and five boys.

And I realized something,

I completely forgot how to communicate with boys.

I mean, I can still talk to them and all but..

The other girl? 

She's already been asked out.

Three times.

But it's completely unfair.

She goes to school and has plenty of chances to talk to boys.

For the past four months I've spent every day working with a boy who instead of swearing under his breath, says every other word under his breath and his swear words loud enough for everyone to hear.

So I'm clearly out of practice.

And it kind of made me realize, 

I miss dating.

I haven't been on a real date since prom.

(Because no, I am not counting hot tub boy who spoke 1 sentence to me the entire time we were on our "date." And I paid for myself. So really, it doesn't count at all.)

And we all know how well that ended.

I know most of you readers already know this, 

but  those of you who don't..

Prepare to be blown away by ultimate patheticness.

I've still never kissed a boy.

I turn 19 in one week.

And I'm still reppin the virgin lips.

Pray for me.

New Life's Resolutions.

Well, November came and went.

Now December is already here.

Along with the first day of the last month of the year, 

I got a new perspective.

First of all,

I went to college today.

Not actual classes..

But I had an appointment with a counselor so I can sign up for classes.

An appointment I should have made a month ago.

I just kept putting it off.

Because I knew that as soon as I made the appointment,

It all would begin.

Life.

And I was a little bit scared of life.

I was scared that I was going to have to decide my future.

And I wasn't even sure what I wanted my future to consist of.

So I ignored it.

I was living in this imaginary world where everything would just, happen.

And I was terrified to step out of that dream.

But I did.

And things feel good.

I still don't know exactly how my future is going to pan out. 

But I'm not scared of it anymore.

I'm excited.

Excited to see what college will bring.

Excited to see what God has in store for me.

I can tell you this, I will do the things I want. 

Like travel.

Everywhere.

And find real love.

Have kids.

Then travel with them.

And sometimes we look at our lives, our parents lives, and we just figure that we won't be able to do the things we so badly desire.

We figure that wealth breads wealth and only the wealthy can afford things like traveling.

But here's the thing, anyone can do anything.

Money isn't an issue.

If you want something, work for it.

You don't have to come from a wealthy family to do those things.

You just have to want it.

How many stories are there of ridiculously poor people who amount to everything?

And rich people who amount to absolutely nothing?

Your future is what you make of it. 

Some call what happens to us fate.

I call it choice.

Because things will happen, but you have a choice of how they will affect you. 

So, starting today, I make my own future.

And don't worry,

Soon you will all be reading about how incredible my life will be.

Just wait.